Hey,

I havent posted anything up on here in a while sorry 900 or so page viewers for not having more work or more interesting work or more diverse work i am working on it just i dont have a camera on me all the time. I have recently just wandered out of a serious depressive swell but i am cool now and feeling as neural as possible!! I am getting therapy and shit though for it so thats cool. I am kinda keen for my dad to finally get some therapist talking to him. I find is strange how therapists are called therapists because of the 'rapist' part at the end it's kinda sunjective dispositioning of what their actual purpose is helping people and being good at it and subcontiously it leavess us a little disgruntal towards that label and more wanting to call them counsellors. Well for me that is the case for you i will just leave you to make your own decisions.

Anyway just on holiday now and epicing it up and now i actually have free time so i have been making black powder (i think i failled at making it which sucks because i think i used too much of everything because i wasnt using electonic scales. I went to a party on friday night it was okay apart from the fact that due to the depression shit i only get a little high and a mega low from drinking so i just dont. I also decided that rainbow youth people are silly and a little inmature and that my friend is why i am keen on bisexuals they are just generally smarter and insightful.

So, as for photography these holidays, i dont think it is going to occur as i need to get a job so i can go to america next year and not bludge of my parents but the thing is i havent been able to find anything. I have been having really erratic sleeping patterns because of my massive list of things to do these holiday and its a bit over welming but we can do it. Keeping the mind busy you know. I have applied for 7-8 jobs and i have been rejected a lot but thats okay just keep trying right?

So, i am also starting to think about making youtube videos for online blogging so i can save me from getting RSI in later life because at the moment my fingers hurt like MOFOs. So take care have fun and americans i hope you are enjoying your white christmas's while New Zealders party it out in the sun in the epic climas of the year to the epic climax of the start of the year whilst ending it on a dramatic downturn by our winter which has no value apart from my brithday of course!